“I’m doing this to feel good about myself”. What happens when I do feel good about myself but i’m only half way to my goal? I stop and just hang out with friends and drink beer….it’s not been that great for my body, or my mind really as I just sit and think about how much better I could be eating and how my gym membership is a giant waste of money if I don’t go, but I just can’t make myself go…its bad. I need to change this now before I completely lose track and end up where I started…again. I can lose 30 pounds. I can continue to lose thirty pounds, but so far it seems I can’t lose a pound over thirty without freaking out, getting bored, or simply giving up because life got in the way. I need to rectify this situation. And NOW. I’m just not sure exactly how?’

It doesn’t help that I’m having to move out of our house two months early and that means in the middle of the quarter. It also doesn’t help that this Saturday is my birthday and I have nothing to show for all of my hard work. I was supposed to be down 40 pounds by my birthday, it didn’t happen. I think it is my attitude. I can’t think about losing weight, I have to simply change my lifestyle and feel good about eating healthy and exercising. My solution shall be to ban myself from the scale and the measuring tape and take it upon myself to eat healthy for the sake of being healthy, not for the sake of losing weight. 

I’m happy about my weight and I’m happy about how I look, now I just want my body to be completely up to its potential because I have a lot of plans and I will change none of them because my body simply isn’t ready for them. 

This puts me at thirty pounds since January 6th. I’m pretty stoked on life right now. I hope that all of you are having success as well and I want to see your skinny selves on the beach with me this summer <3333